6/12/23
i had a dream i was walking through a house in country victoria with a few people i knew. in a large atrium room which connected to the house like a hotel lobby i saw my infant self as i was going down an escalator and i scooped her up. she was the size of a kitten. i walked through the house and began to cry. i looked into a bathroom and the taps were still running which was creepy as i knew the house had been long empty for years and i felt scared.
i had a dream i went into a milkbar and i saw they sold lots of candles in white and red and the shade of blue that's really concentrated and pearly like indigo pen ink. they were sitting in a a display stand that seemed like a wooden desk with many orifices. the red ones were dry and spindly and as i pulled one out i saw they were like carrots. i looked further and saw lettuce and cabbage shaped things that seemed thin and waxy and i touched them and they were real vegetables. the lady who ran the milkbar had display cabinets of op shop / church style bric-a-brac and she began to hold mass and everyone in the shop fell silent. in the cabinet i saw a windchime in the chrome art deco style and resolved to ask her how much it was or if it was for sale. she finished the mass and i was too late. everyone was leaving and she went into the back room. i poked my head around and there were strangers in a rec room. she was sitting with a mother at a table and called me over saying the mother's daughter was homeschooled like i was (i hadn't been homeschooled) and could i look at their homework and i wanted to say no but the sermon she had given made me feel like i had to do a good deed. i looked at the worksheet and it was a table of mathematics problems half done and the mother was speaking over me whilst i tried to look at it which frustrated me to no end